Author Archives: Natural Mama Notes

About Natural Mama Notes

4.4.2020 I started this blog in September 2014. It was a 38th birthday gift to myself, a fulfillment of a long-held wish to share my perspective on the world. After a breast cancer diagnosis in June 2017, I used my blog to share details of the alternate reality I was experiencing. In September 2017 I used this space to share the trauma and healing of my son, who was diagnosed with PANDAS in May of that year. PANDAS is when a strep infection triggers neuropsychiatric disorders. I completed cancer treatment in December 2018, and haven’t written much since. I felt the need to withdraw as part of my healing process. I deactivated my Facebook account, barely viewed other social media. I’m still hesitant about stepping back out there, but I’m feeling the pull. We’re in a global crisis, and the news is dire. If I can add some levity or a more positive perspective with my writing, that is my hope right now. May you find the gems amongst the rubble.

Steroids and Spa Days

It’s just after midnight and I am awake. Last night at 1:46am I ordered a “make your own smoothies with our pre-measured ingredients and recipes” delivery service, scheduled to start next week. That would be the steroids. I didn’t have … Continue reading

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The Land of Possibility

Ahhh, 2017, the year when the seemingly impossible became possible (for so many of us, in so many ways). As this year comes to a close, and as I personally have some major hurdles now behind me, I find myself … Continue reading

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A Storm it was A-Brewin’

We’ve had a fairly peaceful 5 month stretch on the PANDAS front.  For anyone who may have missed what that is, it stands for Pediatric Autoimmune Neuropsychiatric Disorders Associated with Streptococcal Infections.  In children with PANDAS, instead of successfully fighting … Continue reading

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Into the Mystic

My silence on here shows up in my reality in certain ways. It means I’m holding on very tightly to life. It means I’ve probably stopped writing. For me writing brings release and flow and transformation. When I’m holding on … Continue reading

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Love Thy Neighbor

As I shared on a previous blog, I mostly stayed off of social media for many months over this past year.  As our political climate heated up, so did our Facebook feeds.  I knew it wasn’t healthy for me to … Continue reading

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Mo’ Mondays, Mo’ Problems

Today I celebrate my 41st birthday.  It doesn’t carry all the punch that the BIG 4-0 does, but I’m not sure I could handle all that extra excitement right now anyway.  I’m content to quietly ring in another year with … Continue reading

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The Morning After: Cancer Edition

Yesterday was a DFCI kind of day. My lovely father-in-law Jerry (“El Grande” I like to call him) escorted me to chemo in his fancy new Malibu. We enjoyed some Neil Diamond tunes on the way. I peed in a … Continue reading

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Dylan’s Story

Eleven years ago this week, Dylan was born.  The birth of our first child rocked our world in all the ways you would expect.  One week my primary focus was to close loans in the San Diego mortgage company where … Continue reading

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Radioactive

I sit in the subterranean waiting room at Brigham and Women's Hospital, a lady on a loveseat, a patient and her bags.  I packed for a full day in Boston, my bright floral "cancer bag" filled with books, medical records, … Continue reading

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This Moment

7.17.17 I’ve been feeling anxious tonight. I think It’s because I’m trying to fit this cancer into my life rather than working my life around this cancer. This isn’t an inconveniently timed head cold that I just need to power … Continue reading

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