Author Archives: Natural Mama Notes

About Natural Mama Notes

4.4.2020 I started this blog in September 2014. It was a 38th birthday gift to myself, a fulfillment of a long-held wish to share my perspective on the world. After a breast cancer diagnosis in June 2017, I used my blog to share details of the alternate reality I was experiencing. In September 2017 I used this space to share the trauma and healing of my son, who was diagnosed with PANDAS in May of that year. PANDAS is when a strep infection triggers neuropsychiatric disorders. I completed cancer treatment in December 2018, and haven’t written much since. I felt the need to withdraw as part of my healing process. I deactivated my Facebook account, barely viewed other social media. I’m still hesitant about stepping back out there, but I’m feeling the pull. We’re in a global crisis, and the news is dire. If I can add some levity or a more positive perspective with my writing, that is my hope right now. May you find the gems amongst the rubble.

Some Days are for Grieving 5.11.2020

Yesterday was Mother’s Day. A strange Mother’s Day for sure, but a day of celebration, nonetheless. A day to look forward to in a sea of non-celebratory days.  Today is today. Today is NOT Mother’s Day. There will be no … Continue reading

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FRIENDS

Time: aching. precious.Why this deep sadness?There, at the edges. Some days it creeps in. ‘So much to do, so little time.’‘No time like the present.’‘I’ll sleep when I’m dead.’ This body craves rest. With rest comes darkness.To sadness, a loyal … Continue reading

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Recalibration.

July 27, 28, 29, 2018. For me, the last weekend in July has become a beacon. It holds as much importance (maybe more) in the marking of time as the January 1stholiday that’s celebrated worldwide. No matter where the last … Continue reading

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Bald Woman Rising

The year is 2018. We Americans live in a country divided, our news feeds filled with stories of people judging others based on external factors and taking action against them for it. As I endured the chemotherapy treatments that in … Continue reading

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RELEASE.

This weekend marks an anniversary for our family. One year ago, my son Dylan’s PANDAS symptoms were at their most acute. It was a horrifying weekend in terms of his illness.  Although Dylan had received an anxiety and OCD diagnosis … Continue reading

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On the Threshold of Spring

“How are you feeling?” I’ve come to hate that question. When I know it’s coming, I brace myself for it. I run through potential answers in my head, tossing some aside, tweaking others until I settle upon a response. Like … Continue reading

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Ode to Mon Cher Philippe 6/4/1951-2/5/2018

This tribute was written in the days immediately following the passing of my husband’s stepfather Phil, after a brave battle with cancer. Phil received his cancer diagnosis on the same day I started this current round of chemotherapy, 1/2/18. It was … Continue reading

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Disco Balls & Diana Ross:  A “Coming Out” Party

When we think of a cancer patient, the image of a bald head inevitably is part of that picture. For cancer patients ourselves, hair loss is a reality we must face. Even if we choose to embrace the hair loss … Continue reading

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Gratitude

Things I am grateful for today: Our health insurance. The Dana Farber Cancer Institute doctors, staff, volunteers and donors. That my illness is universally recognized to exist, and there’s a variety of treatment plans with proven success rates, and my … Continue reading

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Trench Vibe

winter winds whip on the front lines of all things health + wealth + being + nothingness + that which lies within mindfulness on steroids, escaping deeply alert and ever watchful, losing sleep focused when it’s called for: track, weigh, … Continue reading

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